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GO AWAY, I NEED YOU! Are You Dating A Borderline Narcissist? Kindle Edition
Are You Dating A Borderline Narcissist?
© 2011 David Paul Surman
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a condition which affects 2% of the adult population and is predominantly typified by what the mental health community terms as emotional dysregulation that refers to an emotional response which is poorly modulated and does not fall within the conventionally accepted range of emotive response.
A relationship with someone suffering from BPD may justifiably be described as being like a rollercoaster ride of incredible highs and devastating lows punctuated by a “push-pull” dynamic that leaves the non-sufferer feeling confused and traumatised.
Go Away, I Need You! relates my own experience of such a relationship and sets out to help the reader gain an understanding of their own experience by offering a straightforward, detailed, no-holds-barred account, which will, I believe, aid a quicker recovery and hopefully enough information to ensure avoidance of such a relationship in the future.
David Surman
- LanguageEnglish
- Publication dateNovember 3, 2011
- File size470 KB
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- ASIN : B0063G29EU
- Publication date : November 3, 2011
- Language : English
- File size : 470 KB
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I recently escaped - barely alive - from an 11 month on again/off again torture relationship with a BPD woman. The highs were exhilarating, the lows were devastating. I'm so glad this book exists - it helps me to know that it wasn't me who was insane, and that - because of this dreaded illness - 6% of the population will engage in the behaviors outlined below, and are utterly incapable of a stable, healthy relationship.
Reading this great mini-book, and other websites, I slowly started to glean what I had just been through. My BPD ex was alluring: attractive, meditator, actor, classically trained musician, works in a caring profession, many talents. Passionate sex. A profoundly deep mutual love that will last through many lifetimes.
And then...extreme mood swings out of nowhere. Her crying fits in public - for no reason - designed to have every stranger look at me as if I'm some kind of abusive freak. Constant low-level criticism. Nagging guilt, somehow everything was my fault.
As this book outlines, BPDs are uniquely promiscuous and prone to excoriating infidelity. Constant references to her extremely promiscuous past - I was about lover #60 for this 30-year-old (she bragged more than once about her number of lovers- what woman does that?). These utter lack of boundaries and sexual discretion including being a stripper to put herself through divinity school (I mean, who does that?!), as well as unending details about former (?) sex partners including intimate details such as STDs, orgasm patterns, circumcision, frequency of sex: unwanted and unsavory details such as the lover who repeatedly prompted her cat to defecate on her bed, etc. You will be the unwitting wikipedia of her/his sex life.
And most unusually, as outlined similarly in this book, repeated, impulsive break ups designed for maximum carnage. 6 break ups in 11 months. Each break up was completely toddler-like and impulsive. The morning of, we were happily in love. By night, the hatchet fell again, by text, email or phone. One break up had something do with folding chairs for a housewarming party.... The day of her final guillotine break-up, I expressed my displeasure at her - again - hanging out with lover #59 (see below). The final time we spoke, she declared I was the love of her life - twice - then boom by out-of-the-blue email informs me "this relationship is over" and warns me not to contact her - by phone, email, text or visit - for at least 6 months. I mean, who does that?
After each painful nut-check breakup, her texts, emails, and cyberstalking (of my Match profile) would start again within 1 week. But it was only after breakup #6 that I had bought this book and wised up. Even though she had warned me to cease any contact for 6 months, she contacted me regularly for 2 months until I blocked her cell, set up her email for silent delete, and blocked her on Facebook, Match, etc.
***Don't fall for the trick - past performance is best indicator of future behavior - he/she will do it over and over and over again until you completely lose your mind.*** What's most disconcerting is that I kept giving her second chances, over and over, I accepted her double standards, rationalizations, frequent hanging out with ex lovers, with or without me. At her birthday party, virtually the only people she invited were people (men and women) she had had sex with, who had probably been through the same soul searing torture I had endured. Who can't get other friends?
And then of course this book covers the *hallmark* of BPD: splitting (black or white thinking). Splitting is exactly what makes a BPD relationship - and the multiple break ups - so unbearable. You are perfect, you are the best lover ever, you are their romantic ideal - all of this - until the moment they decide to recognize you have a flaw... Then you go from white to black, and an endless cycle of mind-screwing break ups will begin until you are exhausted and in a bleeding heap of mangled body parts by the roadside. Meanwhile, they will have moved on in record time, and - even though you had discussed a lifetime together or marriage - they very well might be in bed with someone new the night you broke up.
In fact, my ex did exactly that - her boyfriend right before me (lover #58) was a no-show at her performance on a Sunday evening, she 'breaks up with him' without even telling him. She then tells me (lover #60) she's ready to date me - but then goes home and has a one-night stand that night with lover #59. After expressing my surprise about lover #59, she dumps him on Monday to sleep with me (for a few days) before lover #58 comes back the following Sunday. After declining her suggestion that I share her with lover #58, she dumps me to hook with him again. Within a week or two, she dumps lover #58 again to be with me. Then later during a lull in our relationship a couple months later, she sleeps with lover #59 again. Were you able to keep that straight? And that's just what I know about. That's how our relationship began, what was I thinking...?
Worst of all, through their (unknown) mind tricks and manipulations, they will get their hooks in you like you can't believe, and you can even get infected with BPD symptoms and start displaying similar abnormal behavioral. BPDs distrust the world, and you will too because you will question your sanity when you ask how you ignored the many warning signs and dated the person anyway. I am ashamed to share everything I know about her with family and friends, because they will - and already do - shake their head and ask "what was I thinking?" And that's just it - the Svengali mind tricks from the beginning that are so persuasive. And when you bring up a reasonable question like "why do you feel compelled to have sex with everyone, male/female, 20 years older or 10 years younger, including multiple lovers in one week," they will turn it around and convince you they're got it all figured out - and in fact you're messed up.
Many therapists refuse to work with BPDs, those who do often seek support groups to help endure the extreme mind-messing they will endure. It's that bad. As for dating, get the word out. You cannot fathom how close you will come to losing your mind, a romantic relationship with a BPD is the biggest mind mess and worst hell on earth.
If you're already close to someone who is BPD - by accident (family) or by choice (deep in a relationship), do the work and learn how to cope with and support them - as long as they are willing to admit their problem and get treatment. BPDs are human too, and as the author eloquently points out, they are fundamentally unhappy people and - without treatment - are simply unable to understand love or to give/receive it. So BPDs deserve compassion and help. Apparently the best - and possibly only - treatment is dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), so do your homework and help them into that.
But if you've just met someone new, and/or refuse to recognize their harmful behavior and/or aren't getting treatment, run away as fast as you can.
From the beginning things just seemed too good to be true. As our relationship progressed, I knew something was not right. In retrospect, i see all the symptoms, the uncaring, horrible parents, who actually are quite charming people, the lying cheating ex who now, in his current stories, is me. Then, things went terribly wrong. I began seeing a therapist because I thought maybe there was something wrong with me, the constant love and adoration followed by the rejection, outbursts of anger which once escalated to physical violence, for things I didn't understand followed by days of abandonment, followed by the pleading, begging to continue the relationship, followed once again by rejection, it was all too much. I knew I was unhappy, knew I didn't want to remain in the relationship but by the time I began to realize what was going on, I was pregnant (originally planned with the charmer). this relationship made me question my sanity. He would chase me relentlessly, literally beg me to be with him then when I consented, would reject me for reasons he could never articulate. I allowed this to go on for years because I needed and wanted him to be who he was originally, because he told me over an over how much he loved me and our child, because I didn't want to be a single parent... I was mystified by how he could be so charming, sweet, wonderful in public then berate me, be so horrible in our private lives (am I imagining this? This HAS to be me). Even my three year old sees glimpses of her dad's behavior. She makes comments on it at her young age that leads me to question even the very small amounts of time they spend together.
I researched mental issues because nothing made sense. I first, on my own, came up with bipolar with schizophrenic tendencies (the mood swings, the made up stories, the demonization) then, I came across BPD. Reading the stories of loved ones and friends was like reading my own journals. I felt so vindicated because no, I wasn't imagining things. No, I wasn't the one with problems. Finding this book and others like it has been healing for me. No longer am I left thinking, what the hell was that? I now feel as though I have an answer, some closure, and can put a name to this very big situation that literally left me speechless and with a child to raise on my own.
Take this book for what it is. It is meant to help someone who has been on the "receiving" end of BPD. Thank you for writing this, for sharing your experience and giving us on the other side a feeling of relief and hope for something better in their lives.
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How much of his response was predisposition from unfulfilled needs etc?
In many cases only the affected injured party gets into therapy, what about the BPD individual?
What safeguards exist in caring professions to ensure BPD is detected in applicants and subsequently treated?
I could relate to most of the authors experiences but as my ex bpd relationship was with a male some of the experiences I had were different. I've been in two relationships with the most severe form of personality disorders. The first person was a psychopath, and I thought I'd suffered the worst until I met someone with BPD. In my opinion the police & other authorities should build up a profile of patterns of abuse towards the different victims which could help to make a diagnosis and force these people into treatment!
He will not admit to anything or get help for himself although he is deeply unhappy. His mother is the carrier of this gene being narcisstic and borderline herself it's pretty normal behaviour according to my ex. My ex needs monitoring by authorities because he's on the high scale of bpd and little did I realise he was the person who had been stalking me months prior to meeting him.
He is above average intelligence and due to his low self esteem he found it appropriate to install spyware onto my computer and mobile phones on 3 occasions it was due to the repeated incidents that I knew it was him while he watched me going mentally insane.
He had been calling the police telling them he was worried for my mental health months before I reported the computer hacking to which the police wouldn't do anything other than tell me to take my computer and the phones he'd messed with to a computer expert and if they can find any evidence its him then they will take action.
I was off work due to the mental wreck I'd become so obviously I didn't have the hundreds of pounds it would cost me to get an expert to look at them. He was obsessed with me, stalked & harrassed me excessively on & off the internet. I've had to block him on social networking sites but when this didn't work I had to isolate myself further and close my accounts. He was never violent but extremely emotionally abusive and narcisstic. He admitted he had the disorder and said he would get help when Id finally had enough but this was just a ploy to suck me back in while he lied and manipulated the psychologist during the bpd assessment to which she said "HE DIDN'T HAVE IT" after just 20 minutes of meeting him.
So that was the end of that...why the health professionals don't take this disorder serious is beyond me. He is left untreated and so he can continue with his battle for power & control in his relationships.
He did exactly same crap to his other ex's but still the cycle continues while I'm in therapy trying to make sense of what happened to me.
Seriously it's about time the health professionals actually listen to the victims In these relationships because in my experience he is a danger to women's mental health & wellbeing.
Thankyou to the author for sharing his story he gives a good insight into the familiar patterns of abuse.